I Don't Even Know What To Do

Seems like my whole life is falling apart right now

It's crazy

I have been fighting to keep everything together for as long as I possibly could. Things just continue to get worse and it's like I'm in a battle of my own with no help or support. It sucks. I understand why things are the way they are though. I've burned far too many bridges and that's why I'm in the position that I'm in. I have a lot of things I need to do and a lot of things I wish to do and I have no idea where life will take me but I will figure it out.

It's weird, I never thought I'd have to go through a divorce. I'm struggling with a lot of mental health issues and I understand why things have to end up the way they did. I do think I'm alright, I'm figuring out life, I just need to figure out how to move forward in a positive way.

It's like I'm starting all over again but with nothing to help me but my experiences and knowledge. It's weird. I wish people would understand that I've just been going through some shit and I'm not normally as crazy or weird as I come across. A lot of things were just for attention.

But it's whatever. I don't know how you're supposed to fix your reputation, if you even can.

People will think all sorts of things about you and truthfully anything you say and do even when you are under extreme stress or impaired otherwise will follow you forever as long as people remember.

And I know I've said and done some crazy and wild shit over the past few years so it's no wonder I've ended up in the situation that I'm in

However, I continue to believe in God and continue to move forward any way I can

I hope life gets better